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Somebody help me.....
I will have to deal with my ex that I see everyday and he has a new girlfriend now....He said he's actually happy with her right now.
Well...that's what rebounds are all about...HAHAHA!!!!
If he really moved on, he would look at me in the eye whenever and wherever we run to each other....but he's not so ....goodluck to him....
Secondly Ihave to deal with hypocrite bitches and bastards for classmates everyday...actually it's sickening dealing with them...especially Miss C., she have become quite bitchy and annoying this past few weeks...
See, my life couldn't be more spiced up....
- Location:Middle-Earth
- Mood:
exhausted - Music:If I Were A Boy
what we had is over, not that I regret it but it's just I'm not ready for it...we both need the time to go on with our lives. to do what the things that we are best with....
Hi y'all its, been a long time since I posted something in here....well you know if you're a student busy, busy, busy...Anyway, a new year started again, all happening so fast, like it was a week ago its 2008 and then boom! its 2009! everything is fresh and new...my New Year's resolution is no more New Year's resolution.
Because you cannot keep even the simplest resolution...Trust me!
Well, I'll just let the wind carry me and see what I could about the situations it will put me through...
Happy New Year minna-san! :-))
- Location:where else?
- Music:I Hate This Part- Pussycat Dolls
I never thought that my ex- would behave like a moron, he's like a worm that has been rubbed with salt and I'm the salt. Whenever I'm around and he sees me, he would run or walk away in a hurry like I'm had a sign on my forehead: Flee On Sight. Well that's kinda funny because it's only proof that he's sort of afraid/intimidated on me...well that serves him right hahahaha....
The subject Microbiology and Parasitology is way too toxicating...for some of my classmates. Well, for me it's all about time management, I'm not being arrogant and I have to admit it was quite difficult for me at first but I learn to prioritize and spend more time on studying rather than do counter-productive things. You realize it once you get a little older and wiser...I think.
My favorite anime this time is Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion. I really like the main character because he's not your typical hero and at times I want to strangle him, he reminds me of V in V for Vendetta. Watch it you'll be hooked too!
- Location:Where else?
- Mood:determined
- Music:Yuukyou Seishunka- ALI PROJECT
Well I was kinda shocked I was expecting that our teacher in a certain subject would be Ms. H but it turned out to be Mr. Chanel (yes he's gay not I'm being judgmental or prejudice), my classmates and I have a slight not-so-good first encounter with him. I was kinda nervous because my classmate said he had a reputation of flunking senior students, so I'm going to try my best on his class plus he has a not-so-good attitude, he's a bit vain and my gut tells me he's a kind of guy who doesn't recognize his own faults.
So Good Luck To Me....
- Location:Where Else?
- Music:When I Grow Up - PCD
Yun lang muna ang masasabi ko kasi ala me maisip, sige ne bye-bye!
- Location:In the club
- Music:senti songs
My *sigh* I am so not in the mood today, it has infected me ever since I finished my exams in most of my subjects, I feel drained all of a sudden and to make things worst, my guy and I had an argument again. I already told him that if I'm not in the mood, don't pissed me off even if it is unintentional.
He told me that their family is going totransfer in another district and he will never come back.
How about that....
Well I'm really not in the mood right now...okay
so I'll post it as it is....
- Location:In Mars
- Mood: crappy
- Music:NONE
Well as the title says, I don't know what to say, what to think or what to do...I needed space and it seems I don't know what to do with it. I had an argument with my boyfriend about his smothering affections like he has no other responsibilities but me, me, me., I was starting to wonder why did I agree on this relationship at the first place and well Mr. Jerk took it the wrong way and called me insensitive.
Of course it pissed me off, and said to him " Don't say that because you know nothing" and stormed off.
Well moving on from another topic, our human diorama prensentation is going to be a disaster...I just know it bacause if you have unwilling, slow poke classmates, well you know what will happen.
Right now I'm in a cold war with my friends, its because I got insulted when they stick their nose on my business and gave unnecessary comments that are degrading and insulting, and now they are angry because I gave them a cold shoulder last last week. The nerve like I don't have the right to get mad!!!
I got to talk with my Literature teacher, it was refreshing to talk to someone who understands you. She gave me advice that I had to open my heart a little more to everybody around me and just continue to do my best.
Thanks Mrs. Literature....
I got to go now because I still a practice to attend and studying to do.
- Location:As Usual
- Music:Someday- Nickelback
My classmates are the ones who know first, because Mr. Jerk wanted their advice for that particular matter. They guessed that the girl was me and they were right , the next day I was teased for an whole class session...
But its alright, right now I just wanted to cherish the feeling of being in love......
- Location:In'Caf
- Mood:
loved - Music:Always Be My Baby- David Cook
I thought my Literature would be great today, but I'm so wrong. Today has been my performance for a drama, its our midterm so I have to do my best, at first everything was going smoothly but when we went to the second scene, my groupmates started to forget their lines. it was a disaster, a real disaster.
When my teacher announced who was the best, our group only got 3rd. At first, I was just fine by it, but when it started to sink in, I got so so sad and angry. When my teacher got out of the room, she consoled me and told me that I did my best and she has seen the effort that I give, but the comfort was futile.
I want to be angry to them...my groupmates but I realized that it was my fault, I trusted them too much that they could do it, I know that it was going to be a disaster but I trusted them nonetheless...
I'm done with dramas and performances......
The second thing that made me sad is that Mr. Jerk didn't show up on my performance, he promised that he will watch but he's a no-show. I knew he wouldn't stay long, as my friend...all that he told me was just attempts to comfort me because he made me cry....I just knew it.
He said he wouldn't leave me like everybody else did but he still avoids me and don't talk to me...
He was just like everybody else...
I feel so alone...I guess I'll be alone for the rest of my life...
- Location:In'Caf
- Mood: depressed
- Music:Fallen- Sarah Mclachlan
Remember the guy I said was nice on my previous entry, I don't know what gotten into him but he just started avoiding me. I don't know what I did wrong but after we had a talk about something, the next day he just did that...my gosh what a Jerk!!!
Well since you were wondering what we've talked about I'll tell you: Well, he wants my advise on what to do in order to move on from his friend/classmate he fell in love with, I said (based from my experience) cut all communication he has on her, he complained because they meet everyday because they're classmates and she's saying sarcastic comments about him. Well I said don't pay attention to her and if he's affected by her sarcasm, don't show it and deal with it privately.
Actually before that, he actually quit courting my classmate because he loves me...I was shocked and asked why did he do that, he said because his feelings changed and asked me if I liked him too or not, I said I liked him just a sibling. He looked like he was disappointed but c'mon what should I do? say I love him too just like that?
Back to our last conversation, He went back courting my said classmate because Ms. M (my classm8) was special and he didn't want let to go her BUT he's still in love with Ms. S (his classm8). I said you have to let go Ms. S because he's being unfair to Ms. M, he reasoned he can't that he tried so hard but it was unsuccessful. I got a little annoyed and called him undecisive, impulsive, and being an idiot, I know he got mad on what I said but when I asked him if he's mad, he said 'no', I know he was lying through his teeth but didn't push. So I said he has to think things through deeply because you won't have be successful if you act on impulse. He said fine and then said he has to go.
On the next day up to now, he still avoids me even if we'll just cross paths, he'll retreat and go to another direction and IT really pissed me off...
Fine, if that's what you want. You can go to hell you son of a bitch!!!!
- Location:In'Caf'
- Mood:
annoyed - Music:Tattoo- Jordin Sparks
I have nothing else to do today, I had at least two hours until my next class, so I'm here in an internet cafe with my classmates.
Man I'm bored but not as much as yesterday, because yesterday is a pain in the ass. There's no classes because there's a tropical storm....(Arrgh I got nothing else to say)
My my my....I'm still waiting for my friends to give testimonial on my account so I'll have to wait, wait, wait, and wait....
There's a guy who caught my interest, he's funny, frank, and he loves Anime (as in Japanese animation). He calls me onee-san and he's one of the few people who understands me,I hope I'll see him again I really like talking to him.
I think Johnny Depp is drop-dead gorgeous, I watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, and he's really cute when he potrayed Willy Wonka, he gave the character charisma and in-depth character....
See...I have no particular subject to discuss,I'm just killing time. Luckily for me I have someone to kill time with....
- Location:InCaf
- Mood: bored
- Music:None
Man!!! It's mid-term already, and I'M FREAKING OUT!!!! It's because I'm in-charge of two dramas in two respective classes. One is for literature class and the other is for History class, I'm freaking out for no reason at all, I had to prepare for script, props and the actors attitude!!! Besides I had to study on my remaining subjects like my Health Class, STS, and Economics (talk about pain in the ass)...
But oh well...in order to succeed, you have to suffer first (c'mon haven't I suffered enough Wahhhh....)
Good Luck to me....
- Location:In'Caf
- Mood:
anxious - Music:Did My Time- Korn
Well, about the class drama I had yesterday. It's kind of complicated to explain but here we go, during our class session our professor have us to say our opinion about what makes life beautiful.Some of my classmates answered because of their family, friends and the will to do anything we want, when it was my turn I said the same also and the will to persevere even though there are people who are against you.
When I was to sit down after I said that, my instructor stopped me and asked why did I said that, so I told him of my dilemma (it's already written on my last entry), when my instructor asked who those people are, I said they already who they are and I apologized to my classmates if I ever offended them with my behaviour (I really felt I shouldn't have). After my statement, my other classmates gave their opinion I was listening to them until Miss C. tell hers, then she gave her comment about my dilemma. She said that she pitied me because it's me against the whole class and NO ONE should judge me because of my behavior, then I felt a sudden urge to cry, I tried to stop myself but I couldn't so I embrassingly let my tears flow, I know I'm being a cry-baby but I couldn't take it any longer, it's stressing me ever since I'd been in the school.
My instructor saw me because I am sitting on the front and asked if I want to say something, I just shook my head. When I calmed down, my remaining classmates said their comments then suddenly I heard whispers at the back talking about my statement etc. and it irritated me, so I side-commented :"If you want to say anything, go to the front.", after my last classmate stated his opinion, my instructor called me and asked if I have something to say about Ms. C and my other classmates comments about my dilemma and why did I side-commented last time. I stated that the instructor gave us the chance to tell our opinion about the topic so use it and don't talk behind my back, plus if they got issues about me say it on my face and not that I would hear it on other people and I would never apologized on my attitude and behavior because it's the way I am, I would not change it because they don't like it.
After my speech, it was quiet and I know they got my point.
After the class session, one of my classmates Ms. J says she wants to talk to me privately(btw Ms. J is one of my friends). Once we had privacy, she told me that she didn't like my last statement because I became arrogant, she meant well , she just observed that sometimes I'm too snubbish and she felt like I'm belittling them (the class) down by comparing them to my former alma mater and classmates.I said okay and promised to minimized the comparison, then she gave me encouragement by saying I did quite well.
I never been this relieved for months....
- Location:Couz Crib
- Music:Nada
I tried to win their friendship by treating them with snacks or teaching them about our lessons but it's not working, my other classmates are talking behind my back or making sarcastic remarks whenever I'm around. It didn't bother me that much before but now it's been months and I don't have much friends and people around me doesn't like me, it feels like I have an innate talent of rubbing people the wrong way.
To make things much worst, I became the laughing stock of my classmates today , my professor made a joke about me and my classmates laugh like there's no tomorrow, I felt very insulted and ridiculed and when the prelimenary grades were announced I got a low-grade, its like putting salt in the wound. It means all my efforts to have a much higher grade was for nothing , I'd been called 'know-it-all' and arrogant for nothing. I thought I swear to myself that thing like this will never happen again when I go back to school , looks like it wasn't working.
I really don't know what to do next and hoped to find a way soon. Luckily I have this friend that arrived before my next class, she's my classmates and we share a casual friendship, I confided with her and asked her advise. She said that let my critics do their thing and keep my own peace to myself, she even complained that the teenagers on this generation are shallow and immature and I don't need to stoop so low in order to understand them, after a not so long thinking, I said to myself she's right.
Thank you ery much to your advise, You-know-who-you-are!!!!
Chao-chao
- Location:Couz Crib
- Mood: relieved
- Music:Listen - Beyonce
Well, I think my friends got annoyed with me because I told them the result of our test and they didn't pass. I also told to make it up on the mid-terms. One of my friends replied that in a very subtle way and not directly to me that if they (the three of them) are pushed into studying, they will be pressured and will do worst.
I get the message, and I think its true I pressured them too much to study and I'm making things worst.
Lesson Learned: Don't smother your friends on things that they don't want to do, you will send them away.
Okay!!! Chow-chow
- Location:In' Caf'
- Mood: relieved
- Music:None
My!! I'm exhausted with a capital E, all of the cramming, cramming, studying and researching. It's just tthe prelims and I'm working my ass off studying just to pass, I'm not like other students that will just working their asses off when mid-term starts.I've already been there and it sucks, it gave one hell of a headache and my grades are low
Plus I have to deal with my immature and insecure classmates, talk about childish. They are delaying the exams on one subject just because we have exams on other subjects too., I got so pissed because its exam week! and their trying to delaying so that they could cram and do anything else. One of my classmates almost got in a fight because one of the immatures commented when its not needed.
Note: Don't stick your nose on someone else's business.
Anyway, my idiotic ex-boyfriend keep adding me to his Friendster (I deleted him on my Friend's List when we broke up), so I keep rejecting him.Didn't he get the message, Just in case you'll read this: Back the HELL Off, Idiotic Son of a Bitch!!!!!
- Location:Internet Cafe
- Mood: bitchy
- Music:Apologize- One Republic
Well, just an ordinary day but today I'm really calm..y'know like you're not happy or pissed off...just calm...neutral like everything is okay, steady and nothing bad is going too happen.
Okay moving on... My literature class gets me today like it was fun because my professor is really into it. We discussed Sonnet XVIII by William Shakespeare and it was fun to watch my classmates recite it like dead people (dull and lifeless) especially the male species...it's really crazy.
Its raining today, its cold and a little windy but I like it, its calming...
I hope that I'll have another like this...
- Location:Internet Cafe
- Mood: calm
- Music:Take A Bow- Rihanna
